It was Lans birthday. She never had a birthday cake before. I made sure it was a surprise to her, not only was that a surprise to her but I think I have a bigger surprise I have to deal with after this.
After Lans birthday party, I ran upstairs and took the test I never really wanted to take until I was ready to take. The wait took forever. I was so hoping that it wasn't what I think it would say,
And there is was,the brightest pink plus mark I ever seen. I so wasn't ready for this at all. I had so much things to do and so little time to do it now. How can I ever forgive myself in trusting a guy.
As I cried and said I don't know what to do,my boyfriend that I was mad at,whisper and told me that he planned this and that he knows what to do. At that moment,I didn't know to hit him or stay in shock.
Lan wanted to get some driving in. She told me she needs to run to the store and get something put on disk for the computer to pull up some picture. I asked her what they were, and she said she doesn't know yet but she thinks she has a clue,the other day she was going downstairs to the boys room and over heard my boyfriend talk to the help in a weird way and heard him ask were his camera was. So Lan being how she is she wanted to know what was all the fighting was about.
As we get back into the house,Lan handed me a gift, she told me to open it in private,but for now to hide it.
Lan was super happy about the new baby coming. She thought she would make a great big sister. I was so happy that she is happy with it all.
Later that day I seen that Triston was on the computer getting very upset.like he couldn't find something. I acted like I didn't see him on there. This was the first time I think he was ever on the computer. I am glad the help told me that he has been acting very weird lately. And it reminded me of the weird phone calls I was getting,,and now they have stopped,all the emails,voicemails,they all stopped. At this point I wanted to see what was going on.
As soon as he left, I thought he would be gone for a few,I plugged in what Lan have gave me. I seen pictures that scared me and made me so mad. I just sat there and cried. How can he do this? What do I do now?
( "As I went into my Xs house I wanted her back. Her mom and dad told her not to ever see me again.")
(I shot him,I can't believe I did it. I love her so much that I had to do something.)
(Now I have to get rid of the mom,She will tell what I did and never get to see my love again.)
(I will kill for the one that I love. I will never go with out her.)
(now to get rid of them, I have to take these pictures. I can plant them on someone else. Diary this is what I must do for her.)
As I was closing out of the computer,I didn't see him standing behind me. He asked me what was wrong. In my mind I couldn't tell him I new or acted like anything was wrong. I said the first thing that came to my mind."Its just hormones and I was looking up were I can buy cute baby cloths."
"O Cherry,I wish you not to worry about these things,I told you that I would take care of you, I already have cloths and such picked out for you and the baby so you don't have to be stressed. I was also planning a trip just the two of us,we can let the house help take care of the kids so you and I go away for a few days."
He leaned in to kiss me, I couldn't pull back,I don't want him to think that there was something wrong. I am still in shock over everything.
He told me that I will look very cute all big,and that he will rub my feet and back when ever I want. He told me not to worry about my sister and brothers,he will send them to someone for a while.
I walked away and outside. He followed me. "I can't just leave them to someone like that. They are mine to take care of. You new this before you got here."
Cherry, they are getting in the way and they need to have there own place to run around in. "Triston,the house is big enough for more kids even. There is two more empty rooms,and I still have to find the others."
I ran to my room,I can't believe he was telling me this. I was a fool to let him back in my life.
"Cherry, I am warning you,the kids need to go. I want to raise my kid alone,not with other kids around that isn't even mine." You don't understand all the things that I have done for you.
But Triston, I can't get rid of them,Someone took our mom and dad and I am all they have left.
"Cherry, there will be no talk of your mom and dad around here, they wanted us apart,you remember that don't you?"
Triston your hurting me,let go! I think you need to leave.
Cherry,I am never leaving you. You have to know that I will always be around you. You are caring my child. We will be together forever now.
As Triston walked out of the room, I was still on the floor crying my eyes. Thinking of a way there can be an answer to all this.
Just then I heard what sounded like someone falling. I ran out of the room and looked at the bottom of the stairs. There he was. Just laying there. I looked around and no one was there. I don't know to call the cops or see if he is ok. But what ever the answer is I want him gone.
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